Transitioning

Oh my, where to start?

Good news, no sign of PML infection in the last MRI. Still waiting on more bloodwork results.

Neurologist prescribed Ampyra to assist with gait and balance. May begin relapse prevention with Aubagio after review of next blood panel.

I didn’t realize how much I distracted my over active mind with work. It was my purpose; the fuel for my ambition and determination, learning and leading.

This new chapter of my life brings such an incredible epiphany about how I have been living and all I’ve been living for. There is so much more to life than a career. And so much more to live for…

I have no significant other and no children. A stark contrast to my various acquaintances. I’ve never been fond of children or approving of ‘everyone’s’ desire/need/choice to procreate. But now I see…they are so fully blessed by the sheer existence and miracle of those babies and family.

I currently live in a big city, with a family first/small town social dynamic. Yet my particular upbringing did not mirror the culture that surrounded me. It was simple ignorance lol Mostly the reason we judge. While I may still rally for entitlement reform, I will still respect and love every person I meet, given the opportunity.

I will not ramble on with euphemisms and overly optimistic, positive sayings. Simply be kind to one another. I have personally experienced tremendous emotional relief and happiness with this shift in mindset.

So I will still work, part-time. And with my precious and limited time left, I will use my energy to:

Build meaningful and rewarding social relationships.

I will get to know my parents and siblings. As people. Hear their stories.

Volunteer when I can and give back or make a change. Be it with time or a    donation.

Resume hobbies I have abandoned for too long. Learn something new.

I know I will still have bad days and moments…but I will be thankful every day for all my blessings, big and small.

Being Alone is not all that bad

Making progress and learning to live alone. It’s not as bad as I had once believed. I have reached another point in my life where things are changing and shifting. I must be open to the changes and adjust, evolve. This is a time where I believe I am changing in to someone different than who I once was and may never go back. A positive transition filled with possibilities.

I will embrace this opportunity for emotional growth and remain Hopeful.  😉